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What outcome do you hope for? I was on a call for the last hour talking with a friend about supporting a vision he has. 

At the end of the call, he asked "what are you hoping to get out of this?"

I found the question really hard to answer in a way that makes any sense at all.

My answer to the questions comes in feelings, images, and body sensations. I see a bowl overflowing, I feel a magnetic pull, I experience a sense of duty, I follow synchronicities, I release and this is what came to me. One of my purposes in this life is to bring people together, especially really smart people. I don't have a goal, and if I did, I am sure it would change. I want to be of service to a vision of the best future possible.

I'm after the experience. My vision will fill out along the way. 

When I can't frame the answer in an intelligible way, it causes doubt- maybe this isn't right? Maybe my intuition would have a clearer answer if this were the right path. Maybe I'm cutoff from what outcomes I hope for and need to work on getting more in touch with my desires. Am I too scared to name a desired outcome for fear of being letdown if it doesn't come true?

But I want to try on that the question may just be the wrong question for me. Or that my answer to the question isn't going to sound like what I've heard from other people. 

Sharing here, and open to others experience of answering this question. How do you know what you want? 

And if you know me, happy to hear your perspective on my specific psychology or what you think is going on 🤔

What more do you want seeing in the world. Jordan just asked What do you want to see more of in the world.

Here’s my quick response:

Want the change makers in the world, the people who are interested and engaging in the world of issues, where they see a wrong and dedicate their time and resources to right those wrongs (such as: environmental issues, politics, social issues, etc). My big wanting to see in the world is a shift in all these groups to refocus from what seems to be the norm of sound the alarm bells, stress us out with news of the wrongness (as they see it), as if the culprits will change because they have seen teh horrors of their ways. Would love to see this SHIFT to focusing on what is good, what can be done in the good light and highlighting those who are already doing good for change in this world. This shift would be amazing. And seeing in this exercise of writing - may not be that easy to share a vision for a positive future.

For example, with environmental groups searching for funding or new members or policy changing on capitol hill, to see their focus from negatives (what is real now) to focus on positives, if any happening now and what will be the positive outcome if we listen to this change maker (the vision of future if things were to go in their direction).

We lack a collective vision of a possible future of wild green grass, pastures, blue rivers and lakes, blue skies. The simple things of thriving ecologies and brining native species of plants back to our world. But it is as if we are all addicted to the sensationalism of the horrors of our reality.

WORDING this wanting is very challenging. Can see how easy it is to discuss problems and wanting to solve them, versus discussing solutions and enrolling others in seeing the possible future of goodness that motivates the change. This is in contrast to how the world seems to me. The groups who are active in policy change, eco change, social change, seem to chant the negative, ask us to look at the sad animals and the devastation and would love more of the focus on what good is happening and what could be the future if we stay the good course (the group, individual is promoting).