Last night's dream, interpreted

Last night i had a dream that i was hanging out at a bar that was kind of a casino (you know how dreams are) and for some reason I had cashed out $20,000 which i had in a few bills in my pocket. (again, dreams) I kept looking for some place to safely store the bills but I couldn’t so i kept having my hands in my pockets while hanging out and going about doing life.

Here’s how I’m interpretting this:

the money represents the value I’ve created as a unique individual (in conjunction with everything) that I haven’t fully owned yet. It is substantial, and it’s strange (for me) to have it out this way. I don’t fully know how to own it—my instinct is to put it somewhere safe but not redeposit it (redeposit is what I’ve been doing, kinda hiding the size of the impact I’ve had and have in the domains I’ve invested energy and time into) but that’s not the right way… But I don’t know how to relax with it in my pocket either. I think the dream is reflecting where I’m at with standing more fully and openly in integrity with my value-creation, both personally aligning with a more honest truth and so I can raise funds for UpTrust more easily and claim the impact we want to have.

Anyway, just trying a different kind of post. A xanga style, as @dara said