What outcome do you hope for? I was on a call for the last hour talking with a friend about supporting a vision he has. 

At the end of the call, he asked "what are you hoping to get out of this?"

I found the question really hard to answer in a way that makes any sense at all.

My answer to the questions comes in feelings, images, and body sensations. I see a bowl overflowing, I feel a magnetic pull, I experience a sense of duty, I follow synchronicities, I release and this is what came to me. One of my purposes in this life is to bring people together, especially really smart people. I don't have a goal, and if I did, I am sure it would change. I want to be of service to a vision of the best future possible.

I'm after the experience. My vision will fill out along the way. 

When I can't frame the answer in an intelligible way, it causes doubt- maybe this isn't right? Maybe my intuition would have a clearer answer if this were the right path. Maybe I'm cutoff from what outcomes I hope for and need to work on getting more in touch with my desires. Am I too scared to name a desired outcome for fear of being letdown if it doesn't come true?

But I want to try on that the question may just be the wrong question for me. Or that my answer to the question isn't going to sound like what I've heard from other people. 

Sharing here, and open to others experience of answering this question. How do you know what you want? 

And if you know me, happy to hear your perspective on my specific psychology or what you think is going on 🤔

Wholesomeness culture. I was listening to a cool album Dara and Forest recommended called ten days, and as I was listening to it I had this surge of: ahh yeah, wholesomeness is so cool, I wish it was a bigger trend. And then I'm like: how is it already a big trend to be wholesome, which I'm just not aware of yet? This album feels that way to me. I guess in some way sustainable living, recycling, reusing is wholesome and trendy these days, as well as being honest and kind  (Relatefulness and AR seems to be a little trendy these days), living healthy, supporting local businesses etc.  what else is wholesome and trendy these days? 

Vance affect. His affect seems like Listen, children. A bit of disgust. Gives me ick get this opponent [Walz] away. But then Watz, by constrast, doesn’t seem like a kid to me, he seems earnest.

What’s Walz’s vibe… Annoyed. A little hurt. I guess I feel a little more sorry for him more than want to follow him.

I think Kamala had a better contrasting vibe to Trump’s vibe in the first presidential debate.